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I got to sneak in to see Folly for a few hours to share in some good food, good conversation, BIG laughs and treated to an amazing holiday display of XMAS decorations.
Folly has been telling me about these amazing Korean wings she gets from a local caterer...We also had shrimp and artichoke dip...Yummy!!!
I guess you can tell how good they were!!!! Were, being the operative word...
Merry XMAS my lovely BFF...
Lately, Harley has been sleeping in bed...
Toasty warm, BIG marshmallow butt taking up all the space...
Here he is...cocooned in mommy and daddy's pillows and bed...
Photo Credit: Interne Image
Jamie and I have our iphones connected to our pictures. When each of us calls...we can see the others picture.
Instead of saying hello...we say I see you...
And we do..
We see each other...
For all the good, bad, and ugly...we see each other. We love each other just the way we are. Accepting the package...as it is...
We also see YOU!!!
The people in our lives...
We see you...
We love you...
Just the way you ARE!!!
Photo Credit: Internet Image
I have been broken...most of my life...
I will probably be broken the rest of my life...
It is the "gift" God has given me...
To be broken...
How, how how???
I can only say it's through the grace of God. Really...
I am visual...
On day I saw a poster. Single footsteps in the sand. Questiong God...
Where where you when I needed you? Carrying you he said...
This is what I believe. I am not alone. I am not invisible...while my God is. But I sense him with every fiber within me...
Broken, but not forgotten by the God who gives me Grace.
Photo Credit: Internet Image
Footprints in the Sand
One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: one belonging to him, and the other to the LORD.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times of his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it. "LORD, You said that once I decided to follow you, You would walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times of my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed You most You would leave me."
The LORD replied, "My son, My precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.
The road to today has been a long one...
Many ups. Many downs.
Over the years, I have gotten to know her...it helps me understand better what she is able to give...
and more importantly...
What she is not....
Without Jamie, I am not sure I could have gotten to the place, today, I am in my relationship with my mom. He encouraged me to dig deep. To give what I did not want to give.
My mom never seemed really interested in me and my life. She would tell me she loved me out of some sense of "Italian" obligation, but she really did not know me. It was an empty "I love you".
Today, the I love you from my mom is full of meaning. I think she has found safety in knowing there is someone who loves her unconditionally. With all her flaws. Who knows most of her secrets. There are some deep ones she will take to the grave...some sense of "Italian" obligation to the secrets she keeps.
She is still the same woman I started the journey with...
Still self-centered...
Still carries the torch for the child she loves the most...but does not love her back...
Building a relationship with the invisible child...who would sacrifice everything for this woman...
and...
Learning there is something worth seeing in the child who has been taken for granted...
But I can't really blame her...
Knowing her story allows it to make more sense...
It is really history repeating itself...
She was once the invisible child in a family that celebrated the younger child...
History repeating itself...
My mom is 84. She acts 14. If you want to schedule time with her she needs to check her calendar.
Her "old" car is 25. Too old for a 84 year old 14 year old.
Today, she remedied the age differences and got a HOT new Nissan.
Go Granny, Go...
For you geeks like me, here are some of his publications on String Theory and other subjects...
Selected Articles:
Reflections on the Fate of Spacetime
Duality, Spacetime and Quantum Mechanics
The Holes are Defined by the String
Black Holes and Quark Confinement
I have a confession. I am coming out of the closet. I am a closet physicist...
Ever since I was little I was always fascinated by the stars...
Loved going to Griffith Park Observatory as a kid. Still love it today...as a BIG kid...
Something about the vastness...
Something about the mystery...
Something about this sense of God...
I love Big Bang Theory not only for the humor, but its intelligent humor...and hints to what is relevant today in physics...
I love the Science Channel. In particular, through the Worm Hole with Morgan Freeman...
I love the new information that comes out daily...
I love how it makes relevant how intricate our universe it...the appearance of intelligent design...
Here are some recent news stories...
Black Hole Eats Dust Cloud:
Black holes are super dense regions in the universe where space and time collapse. Their gravity is so forceful, not even light can escape, so it comes as no surprise that stars and planets and all sorts of galactic goodies would become black hole fodder.
"This is an unprecedented opportunity to obtain unique observations and insight into the processes that go on as gas falls into a black hole, heats up and emits light," Eliot Quataert, theoretical astrophysicist and University of California, Berkeley, said in a statement. "It's a neat window onto a black hole that's actually capturing gas as it spirals in."
The God Particle:
CERN/COMS
Physicists are closer than ever to hunting down the elusive Higgs boson particle, the missing piece of the governing theory of the universe's tiniest building blocks.
Scientists at the world's largest particle accelerator, the Large Hadron Collider at the European Organization for Nuclear Research (CERN) in Geneva, Switzerland, announced today (Dec. 13) that they'd narrowed down the list of possible hiding spots for the Higgs, (also called the God particle) and even see some indications that they're hot on its trail.
Staying in. Chillin'. Cookin'.
Sunday Comfort...
Buffalo Wings
Spinach Omelet...
Banana Bread (inspired by Tara's Lazy Susan post)
Zucchini Bread...
Jamie is a planner...
Jamie's plans for our future?
Financial security...
Independence...
Build a commune of support...
All for one...and one for all!!!!
